Lonely at the Top

I'm sick of working at the Gallery. Its pretty much a voluntary position (travel expenses and a small Honorium as a 'thank you' twice a year), but it takes up so much of my time - even when I'm not doing something for it, I'm feeling guilty that I should be doing more. I enjoyed it when I was just a volunteer, but now I'm Co-Director, all the fun has gone from it. There was some satisfaction earlier in the year when I was successful at fundraising, but since then its just all been hassle. Most of the trustees don't do anything other than turn up to the meetings where they make suggestions about other things we should be doing, but then sink back when it comes to actually doing the work. I'm sick of the volunteers and artists, of their disorganisation and their lack of common sense and of having to be the one who is practical while others get to be the fun person.

I thought it would be good experience for me (something for the CV) and that I would quit if I found a proper job using the experience but I'm not getting very far with that (one almost interview). The OH thinks I should give it up - he has some crazy idea that he wants to spent more time with me but I remember weekends BG (Before Gallery) and all he did was watch sport on television. But I will feel guilty if I quit - it is a worthwhile thing to do and I don't see who else would take over. Late last year, I think I said I would just do up to July but here I am and I'm thinking now that I should keep going until December, but I'm really not sure I can take the stress.